Moving out and moving on...
28-Sep-2007
I need to learn how to detach myself from silly things, especially if it’s not worth it. Life is a dynamic system, 而且我一直向往的愛情也不是永遠的. But I can’t help myself from ‘shooting my own foot’ 導致我無法前進. "以為只要簡單地生活就能平息了脈博." 但平靜簡單的生活給了我多余的時間去思考,怎麼越想越平靜不下來. 人有時是不是太愚蠢? 為何還是要堅持? When those tears evaporated long ago now it has already came down on me as rain,然而還要選擇等待根本不存在的東西..沒有必要這么虔誠吧. 當我的夢被現實的生活搖醒,我竟然一直到現在不肯接受它. 我很小心的活在擁有過后失去的世界裏. 可能到白發蒼蒼的時候會想有這些回憶已經很好了,已經夠了吧..其實誰也不想讓結果變得這樣,我也不用自己折磨我的感情因為這樣很傻哦.喝喝誰也不喜歡傻兮兮的露露~
Labels: Life
Lulu wrote at 9:48 PM.
Justin Nozuka
24-Sep-2007
I randomly bumped into his live performance a few month ago and I really like his voice, song and his style :). From the name you probably have guessed he is Japanese American decedent. Surprisingly he was born in the same year as me and he wrote the song "Supposed to Grow Old" when he was only 15! This song that was written by a little boy is actually one of my favorite for his debut album. Even though it's written when he was very young, Below is a youtube file that was uploaded by someone else. It's not a video but I couldn't be bothered to upload this song myself so feel free to click play and listen to this amazing song.
And this video below is a recording of his 'freestyle' version of the song. This guy is a natural talent :D
Labels: Music
Lulu wrote at 10:22 PM.
One of those unlucky days...
21-Sep-2007
Guess what? I have lost my beloved wallet. Yep the big monkey one I probably have told you about. It's not just a wallet, it has all of my cards inside and money. Driving License, 2 oyster cards, bank card...and loads of others cards I can't even begin to think what I've lost. I would pay £500 if someone could give it all back to me :(. I know what's lost won't come back and I need to move on just like many other things in life. But too many things are taken away from my lately. It's not about all about this wallet that I am feeling like this. I've lost a lot of my beloved things...too much things...too much.
I am sitting here reflecting on my mistakes which had led me to this state. When will I learn to be a better person? I can't say I tried very hard though I really do try to be a better person, before it was because of you and now I just want to be a better person in general. When will I stop doing things to make those people I love upset? I have already driven one away, well it's not like I can upset him anymore now that he is gone. Like my mother once said 'God is doing him a favor to have this break up'. Who else am I going to hurt and loose now? You know I don't know why I do the things I do. I don't know why I allowed my pessimistic vision of life took the driving wheel, and it drove us apart effortlessly. I guess I am still naive and I am so scared (it meant be a phobia) of feeling disappointed/hurt so I kept telling myself the worst things could happen.
Wow I think I forgot to mention, I was so close to fall into the Thames for a little swim. I came up with all of my clothes drained with this fishy smelt seaweeds+mud. If it wasn't for my friend to save me, I would definitely head straight into the river. I don't know whether I should feel upset about this or be glad that it could have been a lot worse. When everything happens together, you just don't care about what else could happen anymore and just go down with it. For one I considered jumping back into the river to drain my sorrows away...drain me away.
I don't know how long this bad luck day will last. Please give me a break, I beg of thee. I have enough on my plate for me to digest as I am already having indigestion.
Hope I wake up to a brand new day tomorrow :) and with time (the best medicine) I will grow stronger and probably with time I will learn to be a better person.
Labels: Life
Lulu wrote at 3:20 AM.